have i told you lately that i love you

okay. so i havent blogged for a long long while. i've honestly been meaning to. planning to re-start since, like, two weeks ago. knowing me, i put off stuff, even when i have plenty of time, i get lazy and dont wanna do it.

the holiday has been a blast? it's different from everyone elses going out every single day, clubbing and staying out late at night. mine's like, go out 3 or 4 times, stay home with family the rest, do house work, clean, cook dinner, (now that my mom's gone, i've been appointed head-maid of the house), and lazying around at home. honestly, i've had fun being the new maid at home, mopping is FUN! i had fun swinging the mop around on the floor. stuff has cropped up at home. stuff between my mom and dad. mom's got stuff to settle back home with our house, so she's using this opportunity to have some alone time without my dad, dad's jobs strained, i think, mom said so anyway, work stress, ugh, kay's been retained. cant believe it really. how can you retain in a normal academic course in a school like st. joseph's convent?! plus, having the same blood as mine. unbelievable actually. she's got NO drive whatsoever for life, her studies, she even stopped going to church. dad, who's an atheist, even questioned her about it. he thinks that everything is somehow linked. dad and i had a sit down talk with her, and she says she's been studying, doesnt know why she's doing badly and that the church issue is a 'private matter'. HAH, i snorted. here we are, trying to open her stubborn ass, and she's not cooperating. doesnt she know how stressed dad is already with work, and this distant family breaking apart, kim's coming exams, and now her retaining, having no drive for nothing. my dad's friend, who's been a darn close family friend, closer than any of our relatives, offered to talk to her. she said 'NO' immediately. what, a, bitch. being so difficult for the past 15 years of her life, and she still wants to have that attitude!? UGH.

my relatives. my grandma and dad's two brothers stay around the neighbourhood. a like, 7 minute walk away from our place. and when dad and mom are out of town, it's our neighbours, and family friends cooking food for us, bring the kids out for dinners, calling several times a day to check on us (appreciate the caring gesture, but there areso many of them, that it gets kinda irritating. but still, sweet.), giving us birthday and christmas gifts. my uncles? their wives? i hardly see them unless its during chinese new year, or when they drive up the road and see me and give me a lift to the main road, or like, at the mama shop. even my dad's eldest sister, she stays at not-so-far yishun/khatib, near sean i think. she used to dote on me and my sister so much when we were kids, bringing us out, buying us, or whatever we wanted when we went out with her. now? pfft.

ANYWAY. what i've been doing these past few weeks.

today - i had set my alarm for 9.30 this morning. and i DID hear it, and i DID wake up!! i actually thought someone was calling me, so i flipped my phone open, and murmur-ed a hello. HEH.. i took a nice stretch, gazing at the nice bright outside, through my window, rested my head back onto my soft pillow, snuggled in my warm quilt, just for a while, note. and, i fell asleep till 1. like, what the hell. i had set my alarm at that time, to ensure that i get only 8 hours of sleep, no more, no less. see kwanzheng. i AM making a conscious effort at changing my sleeping habits. dad came home, he's been staying home this whole week, helping kim with her subjects, exam week for her. screamed at me for not waking up earlier. 'actually dad, i did get up at 9.30' heh. had yummy chicken rice for lunch, with plenty of chilli sauce. i miss ngee ann's chicken rice! read three days worth of newspapers. i hope that scum who did that to the unfortunate huang na girl, gets a worse punishment than just hanging. like, he gets some sort of testis infestion. like, termite-infestation-of-the-balls, where they slowly munch up whatever thats inside. and the uneaten stuff starts to rot and create plenty of carbon dioxide and methane, causing massive swelling. and once the termites gnaw their way to the skin of the inflated umm, skin, and the air seeps out slowly, making some sorta hissing sound, hopefully, he'll be in the courtroom when it happens, and the microphone attached to his collar picks that sound up. and he then realizes that he's been sperm/spunk-less for a while. and THEN, he gets hanged, half a man. HAHAHAHHAAHHA. stupid ass. HOW CAN ANYONE DO SUCH A THING TO A KID? an INNOCENT KID. im pissed. folded the clothes, packed them, and came online. heh. really bored. downloading bridget jones diary now. wanna catch the new one when it comes out. went to my moms bathroom to measure my weight and played with some 'truebluespa' peel off facial she has. im bored, and i'll never had peel off facials done before. i mean, mom has done quite a few for me t home before. using some mud/volcano magma thingy from new zealand. brown gunk on my face. pretty fun, feels good lying down, having someone massage your face like that. and staring straight up her nose. heh. but anyway, i squeeze the trueblue stuff onto my hand. it came out, white, and REALLY STICKY. like, ew. the description sounds like stuf-that-comes-out-a-guys-thing.. WELL, anyone used art glue before? the strong smelly one from a huge tube. white and sticky, turns cear when dried? yeah, same appearance and smell as the facial thingy. i stared at it, and thought, 'this is the thing im putting on my delicate face?!' i did anyway, i was hard smoothening it out, as it dries pretty fast, and instead of putting a nice even layer on my face, i ended up rubbing off the already dried cream. rinsed it off, and did it again. supposed to have it on for 20 minutes. its been an hour. LAZY TO PEEL OFF. so, i've got cum on my face. hahahaha!

yesterday - was supposed to go to the zoo with koozie. kinda woke up late, again. good thing is, i packed my bag the night before. ah! planning! rushed there, took a cab to the bus stop at thompson to catch the straight bus to SIM, it'll take too long to wait for the really slow 163. cannot be late, again. got there, fifteen minutes before 11.50.. not bad. i'll sit around and wait. so, he came down with abel. felt out of place. especially after what kz told me about abel's impression of me. and, that other thing. so, kz wanted to drop off at his place first, to take something, or change out of his stinky shirt, or something. ended up ordering kfc yummilicious tomyam chicken for lunch. zoo's canceled, it'll rain. i WAS looking forward to the zoo, but im not complaining, spending a day lazying around. we took a walk to some other place in bukit timah. where the lana cake store is. I HAD MY FIRST WHIFF OF THE HEAVENLY SMELL OF THE CAKE SOONGFEE! god save the queen! heh. like, yay! it smells AWESOME. a nose orgasm. that umm, sounds gross. can just imagine the nose dribbling with god-knows-what-mucus-and-such. at least, my mouth orgasms dont sound that bad. cant wait to have one over the long coveted lana cake. loved yesterday.. i love love love spending simple time with kwanzheng. eu te amo sweetie.

umm. having problems uploading songs to tiff's thing. her pictures, musics, school stuffssssssssssssssss files all got wiped out from her com. AWWWWWW.