iwannastaymydad'slittlegirl

like, ohmygod. went for dinner with my neighbours and my family. which was pretty enjoyable.. cuz the couple's pretty young.. so, they're jokes were funny.. had, bambi, ostrich, ASPARAGUS!!, and white wine.. yumm.. hor fun also.. mmm.. when we were leaving for dessert at the cofffee bean, walking down the stairs of jumbo, serangoon gardens.

my dad said to me
'i was looking at you, and just realized how much you've grown up'
then i felt like crying
cuz i dont really want to grow up.. never ever.. i want to stay a kid.. my dad's kid forever.. hold his hand, hug him, sit in his lap, and all that.. i rmbr when i was young, we'd go out and my hand was small and soft and his was big and rough.. and i'd feel so safe and happy and secure. sheltered from the real world.. the big wide cold heartless mean world.. dont wanna grow up so fast.. im damn afraid.. freaked.. guess its like this transitional period.. from the warmth of the womb, to the cold bright world.. nows its from that bright world. to its darkness.. without my dad there anymore.. i mean, hell.. i wanted to marry my dad when i was a kid.. hush hush about that.. its a secret.. he was like, big and strong and nice.. the best guy in the world! brought me to parks.. played monster with me.. bought me nice food.. he was so sweet.. he still is.. i love my dad.. wish i could go back to those days.. now, im older.. and we drifted apart.. holding his hand now is weird.. maybe its just me then.. pfft..