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letmecry..
 
letmecryletmecry..
 
ugh..
 
cant
 
get
 
it
 
out..
 
pfft
 
white hairs sprouting.. thats my attempt on humour for today.. just tragic isnt it..
 
cleaned the whole house by myself.. even though almost everyone was home.. vacuumed the place.. wiped the floors with a piece of cloth of my knees.. its very tiring.. im so shagged.. and becuase i had to clean the house., i couldnt meet my o.i mates.. hope to go out later.. dont want to go to mum's friends house for dinner.. i know her son's, and their friends, all family friends, but i dont like them.. i mean, they embarrassed me on purpose 6 years ago.. and they're just different.. im different from them.. them being acj people.. i would be terribly bored sitting there by myself stoning and stuffing food into my mouth.. what a loser.. so i'd rather be in a place where i wouldnt feel and outcast.. with cheowjoo, valerie, minzhi, shih hwa, chu wei, sean and tif..
 
managed to sob.. feel so much better now.. found a lot of stuff online.. the internet is full of information.. i mean.. hmm.. chanced upon the old webpages of friends, which i've never seen before.. which was, pretty cool.. gained insight on how they were like then..
 
so there's been no reply.. okay.. steph chill.. its okay for him not to reply.. chill girl.. everyone's saying how i should call him.. uhhuh.. why do i always think he's pissed.. esay qns.. cuz i never know when he is.. linda's meesage to me scared me.. i dont want to think like that girl.. it's just.. i fel ignored.. then i feel selfish cuz he's prob busy with homework and all.. then i think, it doesnt take that long to reply.. doesnt it.. im gonna cry again now.. trembling.. tihs.. ti kcuf..
 
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