closer.

n e quietness
is whr i confess
hw i feel inside
whn ur holding me
evrythn i need
is by my side
take me away to a place
time n space
tt make me feel pure

finally! stupid blogger wont keep rejecting my entries.. its frustrating.. happily blogging, and seconds after you click the submit button, all your precious work is gone..

cant exactly think of much to blog about now. its 2! and im tired. i was really bored today.. woke up at 5 in the afternoon.. been online and at home all day.. been itching to do something.. wanted to grab a heineken from the fridge, eat my extra salt and vinegar chips, chocolate icecream straight from the tub and potato myself in front of the telly, or computer, and stuff my face.. but i was too lazy too! plus i know, i'll be made to do even tougher work outs to lose it all..

talking about working out.. i went to the gym with kz on wednesday.. i had to LIE, CHEAT, DECIEVE my mum.. feel terrible every time i tell her half truths.. and that guy was being supportive of breaking my mother's trust.. tsktsk.. -shakes head- i cant understand why he got so URGH about the fact that i didnt know which bus stop to get off at.. and i got pissedfirst thing i did was, the walking up and down thingy machine.. into the 43rd second, i wanted to die already.. 2 minutes later, kz comes along and increases the resistance.. sob.. did it for like, 20 minutes.. so proud of myself.. heh.. never have i ever sweat like that before.. beads of sweat were collecting at my chin, steadily dripping onto the machine.. usually, when i go to the gym, by myself or with mum, once i get tired, i stop.. never pushed myself THAT far.. that was just the cardio.. did the bench press thingy? i think thats what it's called.. which wasnt too bad.. weights.. arm curls.. learnt two new methods of doing something that works like sit ups, but you dont hurt your back from the gym woman, jessie. used the rowing machine too.. fun.. i actually was so shagged.. but still wanted to continue doing upper body stuff.. was REAAAAAALLY hungry later on.. had yummy yummy HONESTLY FUCKING DELICIOUS pizza by the british club pool.. god, it was great.. maybe i was hungry, but, it was really good! they didnt makeit 'chow tar' enough though.. the base was merely just cooked.. needs to be burnt a little.. then, the flavours of the charcoal or wood they used fuses with the cheese, tomato, and tobasco.. a mouth orgasm.. mm! went over to his place.. kept procrastinating the time i had to leave.. pushing back 15 mins, half an hour.. heh..

im becoming so fair now!! cant wait for wednesday, no school cuz the business class teacher's giving a talk somewhere else, and my life guard instructer's got re-service.. full day tanning session with my favourite guy sean.. far out.. cant wait.. i miss him!!

school's fun.. kexin and this cute guy of hers who we see like, everywhere! he's cute, no doubt.. thing is, he know we notice him a lot.. even if he's sitting on the opposite side of the canteen, he turns and catches us looking at him.. all the time.. japanese chocolate and cheese pancakes rock.. durian ice kacang..  food food galore.. okay, so maybe not that yummy..

parents just left for geneva.. i wanna tour the world!! heh.. lotsa food in the fridge.. lasagne, pizza, quiche, apple pie with custard.. mmm!! so, whoever wants to get fat along with me, better come over before i devour everything.. grins with glee..

i broke my specs!! hur.. doing this balancing act with it on my nose.. it's really uncomfortable.. i have this red welt on my nose due to the friction and rubbing.. ow.. but i cant possibly wear contacts every day..

tired.. its 3.30 now.. better sleep or i'll fall asleep during service tomorrow.which i most prob will anyway.. nights sean!

nw tt i hv bared my soul for u
a little trust wldnt go astray
nw tt i hv given it all to u
dnt let a mishap get in e way
cuz its a long way dwn frm whr ur sitting
at e top of a jewelled throne
n ive been done e deed
more than once
more than twice
n they were left to pay e price alone.