im feeling so terrible. i was supposed to go to the gym with kwanzheng at like 2.30! hur. but my parents said no! although i swear, my mom did give her consent two days ago for him and i to go today! now they say, next week. the thing is i feel so bad, even though its not exactly my fault for blowing him off. he was looking forward to it, and basically, so was i! i feel so irresponsible like i let him down. hur. and they said that we're suppposed to clean the house, which is why i couldnt go gymming! and look! im online now.. hellloooo! i'd rather spend my time with him. flying off tomorrow. hur.

tears my hair out of my head. arggggggggggggggh