i can be an asshole of the grandest kind
i can withhold like its going out of style
i can be the moodiest baby and u’ve nv met anyone
who is as negative as I am sometimes

i am the wisest woman u've ever met.
i am the kindest soul with whom u've connected.
I have the bravest heart that u've ever seen
and u've nv met anyone
who's as positive as i am sometimes.

you see everything, you see every part
you see all my light and you love my dark
you dig everything of which im ashamed
thr's nt anything to which you cant relate
and u’re still here

i blame everyone else, nt my own partaking
my passive-aggressiveness can be devastating
im terrified and mistrusting
and u’ve nv met anyone as,
as closed down as i am sometimes.

what I resist, persists, and speaks louder than i know
what I resist, you love, no matter how low or high i go

im the funniest woman u've ever known.
i am the dullest woman u've ever known.
im the most gorgeous woman u've ever known
and u've nv met anyone as, as evrythn as i am sometimes.

alanis morisette. everything. damn nice.

ELEANOR HO PEIMIN.. yes you want your name all over my blog right dearie? jealous of seeing kz's name everywhere huh? your face turning green eh? haha.. she's complainging to me how jealous she is over the phone now.. naggy old nun.. TSk! sex-deprived nun no doubt.. hope she doesnt reasd this! yes dearie, i know you're gonna show titus my Christmas card to you if you do! but i love you ele! dont!! mean bestfriend! hur.. cant believe how evil she can get! i'm laden with all your secrets too ele! ahem.. clears throat. cockroach dream, remember who saved you? remember when your face turned green in the dream? you dreamt that I died?! your best friend died? and you and COCKROACH ikan bilis lived?! hmph! fine. go to your ikan.. leave me! ditch me! your best friend! flatty! -tosses head- im still angry at you for the short testi you stupid cow! HUR

went to malaysia. visit grandfaher's ashes. thought about how sad it'll be one people forget, which they will, eventually about their ancestors.. i want my ashes to be scattered. somewhere. somewhere nice. still thinking. arh well, got my whole life to think where eh. jb's changed a whole lot. more cute guys around. heh. had a nice lunch at some nice restaurant. had banana punch, which was banana blended with yoghurt and milk. gee, im going healthy. heh.. the banana punch came with a cherry. remembered about what lawrence once tested me on. good kisser lawrence? haha! tying the stalk of the cherry into a knot with just your tongue.. tried it at patara, but i took like 5mins. this one was harder, the stalk was shorter, but i managed it much quicker. yay.. their cream of mushroom soup is to die for. mm! ate a lot. mexican rice with chicken with a great tasting sauce.. later went for dessert. but i had roti prata. then we went to this shopping mall and i bought doughnuts. ahh! the calories! the guilt! bought the BEST wanton mee home too! heh..

sigh.