yes, computer's been down.. but its back up again! just realized how dependent i am on it.. which is a good thing or bad? hmm.. something to ponder about.. aik! better not.. or i'll start some interlectual debate in me or something..

okay.. feel bad about the last post i did.. i love my friends.. all of them..

whats been up this week

3 jobs
1. french restuarant at club street.. very nice.. very french.. very cosy.. very small.. very big (compared with others) paycheck.. 1200, since i have no experience!! whoa.. a lot.. i hope david the manager calls tomorrow..
2. singapore recreation club.. 6 bucks an hour.. 6pm to midnight.. got the job already.. dont knw if i should accept it!! i want the francais one!!
3. thai restaurant in swissotel.. 1050.. got that one too! again, i want the french one.. grr.. wait till tmr to decide.

sigh.. why arent you talking to me!! dont make me worry like this.. like, its wrong to feel jealous la.. and currently im not sure what im feeling.. whether its jealousy and plain unfairness or feeling of being ditched.. okay.. yes, i dont own you.. but, i mean, cant you even spare a tick to reply my messages? no obligation.. but, sigh.. 5 days has passed already.. and worst thing is i dont know whats wrong!?! out with his friends.. gotta have a little time for me too right? okay.. maybe not.. but.. feel so guilty about being so demanding.. she thinks i should call him, or at least message him again.. but, hello.. if he's already so ignoring. why should i keep bugging him like that.. dont ignore me la.. friends so long already.. at least tell me whats up right..

monday, went for a movie with sean tan.. dawn of the dead.. nice.. scary.. nearly cried watching it.. thought the ending was really sad.. heh.. they fought so hard to get on a boat and leave the infected land to a uninhabitted island.. but when they got there, they got killed.. sad.. very sad.. tragic.. hmm.. gross though..

had a nice talk with mrgonewiththewind.. joking around like we used to, 2 years ago.. i miss those times.. doubt they'll ever be back again.. all i can do is hope.. but, ugh, it's happened many times.. friends, and then something happens, argue and then asshole takes over.. bah..