to dream a dream of dreams is a dream of you

let's see.. where shall i start.. com's been down, AGAIN! enshan, sean or kwanzheng, please help me fix it!! grr..

friday - after work, went to catch 50 first dates with jacky, janice, lawrence, jaime and robert.. it was so f*king nice.. a terribly good movie.. i kinda expected it to be a lame ass, majorly cliched, tragic fairy tale love story with a patheticly romantic ending.. it DID turn out to be all those, but it as very enjoyable.. the jokes were great.. the acting was superb.. i dont know.. before the movie, robert took jaime for a treat at sudi sushi (cineleisure).. as i was happily drinking my lovely jasime green tea, facing my darling china woman, she let out a great gigantic burp.. attempted to laugh, but ended up snorting green tea up my nose, burst out laughing, and sprayed poor jaime and robert with my green tea.. yes, im really sorry.. but, it's hardly ever i see someone burp like me! thing is she's really funny (amusing) looking.. small eyes, round moon-like face, HEAPS of blusher, ha. ha. HA! took a cab back home with jacky.. thanks a lot.. he's been very sweet..

saturday - gonna get nora to help me pierce my right ear, want another hole, tongue? no.. lip, maybe.. was psyched up enough to finally focus on getting a tattoo sometime soon.. not some ah lian sort.. just a nice one.. i mean, just because you have a tattoo doesnt mean you're some slut or gangster, which is usually the mindset here.. okay, get it someplace hidden.. just for yours truly here to see and admire as i want.. dad's okay with it.. last year, i brought up the topic, and he just told me to make sure i go to the right place.. sterilized needles, and such.. this is so neat.. thanks janice, because of you, we get pizza from your dearest.. i hope everything works out fine dearie..

sunday - MY OFF DAY! dad comes into the room at 11.15.. 'phone call' -groggy and definitely too tired to move my ass down the stairs to get the phone- 'get whoever to call my handphone.. it was tif, making sure i was awake cuz i had to meet her in 45 minutes.. she knows me so well.. ha ha.. didnt meet sean cuz he slept too early in the morning, seven? ha.. dont know what you do in the wee hours of the night sean seow.. tif and i were exhausted.. fell asleep, the both of us, during service.. it wasnt pastor prince, so maybe that was why we dozed off.. i could still hear the guy speaking, he was talking, the new and old covenant, and a verse from revelations about hot and cold and jesus spitting out the lukewarm - which signifies how we must not mix the new and old covenant, cuz when Jesus died on the cross, there was no need to have the sepreation/distance between God and us, sinners.. my eyes were closed, think i was snoring a little, but i was able to hear and register whatever the guy was speaking about.. later, tif and i went round looking for prezzies for her friend, then sat in burger king.. yes, tif darling, you are so sweet! accompanying me cuz i had to meet my parents at ritz carlton at 6.30.. time check, 4.15.. and yes, i know you had two essays to do.. that makes her all the sweeter.. i wanna marry you tif! while she was doing her gp essay, i did this mindmap weighing thing about the both of them.. everything points towards him, but i dont know how not to hurt the other guy.. help!! i have to be serious, i cant take stuff so lightly anymore.. must think properly, think clearly, think carefully.. hmm.. ajc fullscrap paper.. nice.. met ele's sister while walking to the wrong carlton hotel, bought some cambodian photo fund raiser thingamajjig from her for 5 bucks, although i only have 5 bucks left till the end of the month.. IM SO BROKE.. kwanzheng called just as i met my parents, so i couldnt talk.. dinner was err, okay.. expensive.. and yeah, good food, but i wasnt interested.. been eating out everyday, i need home cooked food.. was at the green house already a couple of months ago.. great food but its getting kinda dull.. last time i was there, a day after the o results.. with sean and tif.. same great rich desserts.. would have loved to indulge myself but, eh, was kinda tired and in a grumpy mood.. sorry la ma.. my phone was in dad's pocket, he didnt want me messaging during our precious limited dinner time.. yes, i know family is important.. but.. grr. nevermind.. had a nice long chat with kwan when i got home.. it was really nice.. just kept talking and talking. though i felt kinda guilty and bad cuz his throat was acting up.. and hs parents were kinda heh, parenty.. merely one awkward moment cuz we didnt get what each other was saying.. but besides all that, it was nice.. was so tired before that, but after, heh, wide awake.. think you're reading this eh.. think you'll message to say something about this? oh and the bad stuff in my previous entries.. not about you... relax..

it very flattering.. found out his nick was about me.. i suspected it, but hey, it doesnt have to.. im just some girl he noticed at a nice thai restaurant.. the end eh.. penetrating eyes.. (her eyes penetrate through me) ha.. now its 'her sweet voice, i miss it' which is super super flattering.. im very honoured.. its pretty interesting to note that, i met him, in my dreams, 4 months before i actually met him in person.. and no sean, it isnt like what you say it is. totally ridiculous.. but yeah.. its not deja vu.. how can it be.. but yeah.. the rest, is in my private journ.. ha.. ha.. he's very expressive.. i mean, he's not shy when it comes to certain stuff, like how he feels, which is good.. weirdly, i dont know how he feels.. make sense? no? nevermind..

today - poor jacky left his samsung v200 in the cab today.. bad mood.. almost cried at work today.. didnt eat dinner cuz all the served was prawn, squid and more prawn, which i totally dont eat.. YUCK..

i've go thursday off.. and yes my darling seann, i promise ill go suntanning and swimming with you.. i miss you, you hunky dory chunk of horny meat.. haha.. wanna come over for dinner? need you to pull that strip of cloth from my leg.. haha..

overall, im feeling fine.. a little confused cuz i know what i want but i dont know what to do.. sigh.. no sean, he's serious.. the thing is, im the one who's playing mega super bitch now..

seanie my honey.. nice blog entry.. love it.. may i copy paste? ha.. and yes, i totally understand how you feel.. i feel the same way.. my deepest condolences.. sigh.. FAKE FAKE FAKER.. GRR! stupid dumb shit..