i am so freaking annoyed!! you see, i had this friend, ok more like msn acquaintance who i talked to on the phone two years ago.. last year, he asked me to go the his Christmas dinner at his house, but i couldnt because of my class chalet.. i dont wanna be biased but obvioudly i would put my class over someone i hardly know.. and all i knew about this guy was that his name was joshua, from sas, liked metal, hated linkin park, indian with portugese blood in him, low self confidence, kept saying how ugly he was.. not that im saying that he's ugly or anything, i have no right to judge people's looks, but to keep saying it and whining about it, just shows how low self confidence he has!! ok, s i couldn't make it for the Christmas party.. and you know what? that ass had to cheek to say that i was being superficial! that i didnt go to his house, or being a nice friend because he was ugly! yeah right.. and look.. yes i admit.. i am repulsed by him. but it has nothing to do with his looks! its more like because of his attitude.. he thinks/thought (not too sure which tense to use) that we are like the bestest of buddies! my arse we are.. he used to say stuff like "i treat you the best amongst all my friends" and "i guess we are indispensible to each other" and argh cant remember the rest already.. will update this when i remember them.. hell, the thing is i dont regard him as a good, or even close friend! yes, we talked on msn.. yes we talked a little on the phone! yes i went out with him once for lunch.. okay! that's it! that's where we end! i mean, even when i went out with him, i found him super annoying.. he woke this band around his wrist with metal spikes poking out.. okay (poseur) okay fine.. bearable, just as long as i didnt bump into his arm.. he was constantly sarcastic.. okay fine.. i can accept sarcastic comments.. in fact, i love sarcastic comments.. just not all the time.. i was like.. urgh.. bear with it.. just brush it aside and be nice.. okay fine acceptable.. but i was disgusted once he started assuming and mentioning how close we were and how our tragic lives would be disrupted once we lost each other.. boo-hoo-hoo.. that is so sad.. okay, fine, im bitching a little now.. i can't help it! im so frustrated! but i mean, okay, if he died i'll be a little sad, but its not like i would fall into depression over it!?? oh man..

okay.. and earlier this year, he asks me over msn whether im pissed with him.. i said i am.. then he verbally abuses me a little, ok a lot.. whore, slut, superficial bitch, yadda yadda.. i didnt really care.. then blocks me.. okay.. THEN he MESSAGES ME! long long LONG chunks of messages.. all of them 3 messages long, the longest his 3315 could type and mass sends them to me.. read them and laughed a little over them. they were pretty pathetic and funny.. "i curse that satan haunts you" ooh-scary.. i have the Holy Spirit of Jesus in me.. why should i fear the devil? "you superficial bitch you hate me because im ugly" nothing to say about this.. "you think you're so great, pretty, smart, etc" what am i, perfect? i held my anger in and replied as nicely as i could smthn that went along the lines of "i feel sorry for you for having such a low confidence level.. you shouldnt think people dont like you cuz you're ugly.. i will pray for you.." wheeeeeew! another torrent of verbal abuse came spewing from his phone.. -whatever-

later on, he messages, "did you ever like me as a friend" "why do you hate me?" "why am i irritating? im not" and the latest one "hey. can i ask you a question?" need i ask what question he has on his mind?!? i mean, everytime he messages such stuff i just tell him the truth, that i cant stand the way he thinks we are buddies and how he keeps harping on it! when he asked me about my o level results like last week, he said that "we shouldnt talk about it.. because it will just make us more miserable" *pay attention to US and MORE MISERABLE.. im perfectly fine with living without him.. it's who cant stand not messaging me once a week! i mean bugging me about the past every week, although it would make his sad ass 'more miserable'..

say im mean, so im horrid, say i am worth the vulgarities he hurled at me, say that i shouldn't treat him so badly.. but think of what i had to put up with!?! he keeps saying how he really misses me, then he starts annoying me, then he says that i am a superficial person, then he ignores me and says that i am mean or that we shouldnt talk about it anymore cuz it will make 'us more miserable'.. NEXT WEEK, he misses me, annoys me, scolds me, 'protects me', then leaves the bitch (me) alone to lie dormant.. and it goes on and on and on.. look what i have to put up with!?! someone with serious memory problem!

and TODAY!! "hey... can i ask you a question?'"i reply 'what? as long as its not whether i liked you as a friend last time nor about why i find you irritating' he says "aiya forget it. But i really valued you as a friend man" (didnt reply, was busy) "anyways you want to hang anytime soon?" (didnt reply, was still busy) "don't tell me. asking you out is irritating. so how? hang soon" i replied 'no asking me out is not irritating, but flooding my inbox is.. sorry but im too busy to hang out with you.. plus if i had a choice i wouldn't want to hang with you' *yes im being mean! but it was the honest truth! must not lead people on you know.. i have tried the subtler way of dealing with him. it just deosnt work.. from him "okay... whatever man.. you're like so freaking superficial. (where have i heard this before!) Can't you accept people as who they are and not what they are. (what a major contradiction within a sentence!! normal acad-er with bad attitude, must try to understand) i'm not irritating. (bursts out laughing!) maybe somtimes. everyone is. you will one day lose what you have now with this attitude. (ooh my bad attitude which will cause me to lose all my friends is the thing that is so appealing about me that he cant stop bugging me? haHA!!) why don't you want to hang with me... i suck? ya whatever. oh ya. everyone sucks except you. cocky"

-rolls eyes-

-ROLLS EYES-

-ROLLS EYES UNTIL THEY POPETH OUT-

ok great, i just complained to my mom.. everything about joshua.. she took it better than i expected.. i thought she might scold me for making friends with this sort of people.. she didnt! she just said that he is lame.. se told me that i should go hang with him since he is so lame and -urgh- he will be boring since he would talk about the same thing over and over and over again.. she also said that i should be careful.. and she said that i should call him and strightened things out with him.. whoa.. okay.. i mean.. i was thinking about calling him and telling him facts over the phone in case he couldnt get my message through sms.. but i dont want to talk to him over the phone! so sick! feel so bad.. i bitch about my mom so much.. she isnt that bad la.. really.. hurh.. okay.. so i should call him.. maybe i should get my mom to tell him off over the phone? hahaha! my mother has cheered me up.. time to sleep! feeling better already! yay!