1. we lost the debate, again
2. i lost something in an hour
3. i found my long lost cousin, ok his name's seng seng, but his english name is stephen, *sean stop laughing* he's 28 and he and his girl friend bunked in my room.. mom said he's supposed to be cute.. hmm.. cute for a cousin i guess.
4. today was my grandfather's death anniversary.. went to the columbrium..
5. havent got a new phone yet!
6. esplanade's roof garden is a nice place to go when you're feeling down..
7. im not going to bother to diet anymore cuz blah i wont ever grow fat cuz of my metabolism
8. i wanna go shopping at mango! *tif go work and we'll go together*
9. was made to make a friendster account.. yuckety.. bleah..
10. hmm.. snapped at ele.. sorry man.. just frustrated..

have you ever felt so empty inside, so lonely.. that you can be in a crowd and yet feel like so alone.. im not a loner, but sometimes the only times i feel loved is when im completely by myself, alone.. doesnt matter where i am, just alone, away from other people, other human contact.. it could be in my room, or in my bathroom, im a park at night anywhere.. just enjoying the time you spend with yourself.. to think about everything thats been happening.. your thoughts are clean, uncontaminated with other people's view points.. you are able to clear your mind and free your spirit.. riiiiiiiiiiight.. ok.. but when i was up there, esplanade's roof garden, watching people DOWN there doing whatever they were doing, carrying on with their own lives.. i felt this -whoa- surreal peace, honestly man.. like i was some higher bein, ok maybe not, like i was not part of society anymore, not one of them, not a person.. just a being, being able to watch them at their lives omnisciently.. i dunno how to explain this.. but it felt really carefree.. really nice..