thank you for curing me of my ridiculous obsession with love
Yes I did it and i'll do it again
It doesn't matter if I am your best friend
I don't think so, you're not that smart
Over and over it breaks my heart
The cycle continues time for your crime
The pain comes back in an ugly design
Her makeup smears the tears that she cries
Over and over every night
Emotional swords slash my soul
And now the pain, it takes control
I think about you, I think about me
I think about the way that it used to be
I need a bottle, I need some pills
I need a friend, and I need some thrills
A shoulder to cry on, a friend to depend on
When life gets rough
Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
It's like a fight every single day
It's always easy when you have it your way
Deep in my heart, in the depths of my soul
My selfish ways are out of control
I'm sorry that it comes down to this
I punch through the wall as I break my fist
The makeup smears the tears that we cry
Over and over every night
Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
Time, and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
You're so selfish
You're making me want to end this relationship
You're making me want to end this
(Lost time behind, loving ties unwind)
Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
Time, and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
Time, and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
Time, and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
Loving ties unwind
Lost time behind
Loving ties unwind
Lost time behind
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"Goodbye To You"
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
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(me) says:
...........
says:
you are girl crazy ssiter
(boy) Valerie WHERE U AT? says:
heh
says:
desp
says:
o
says:
i told my dad about you
says:
Valerie WHERE U AT? says:
?
Valerie WHERE U AT? says:
what?
says:
what what?
Valerie WHERE U AT? says:
what u tell him
says:
-snickers-
Valerie WHERE U AT? says:
huh?
says:
........
says:
wheres your sense of humur
says:
fine
says:
i told him about you
says:
like...
says:
almost everything? censored some stuff
Valerie WHERE U AT? says:
what
Valerie WHERE U AT? says:
did
Valerie WHERE U AT? says:
u tell him
says:
umm
says:
good stuff la
says:
no worries
says:
-winks-
Valerie WHERE U AT? says:
what does this all mean?
says:
what
says:
getting pissed arh
says:
cant take a little joke or what
says:
fuck
says:
haha
says:
learn from you..
says:
ok
says:
sorry
says:
bye
(me) the pain, it feels so good, the cuts and blood, heals my wounds says:
haiya
the pain, it feels so good, the cuts and blood, heals my wounds says:
dont be pissed la...
(boy) just leave me alone for a while EVERYONE says:
alright
i think
i needa tel u something
i don't know
what i did
and
i do know what i did
but like
i can't be anything more then a friend
and well.
i do this every few months with u
we have this talk
and we go on n on .
and
few months later its the same thing
i' m tleling u
alright
i just
can't
be more then a friend
(me) the pain, it feels so good, the cuts and blood, heals my wounds says:
i know
you dont have to say it anymore
i get it loud and clear
i dont even know why you suddenly said this
i wasnt bugging you about anything
(boy) just leave me alone for a while EVERYONE says:
u know why
coz i'm sick and tired
of fucking leading
everyone on
and then
turning around
and being the bastard
alright
(me) the pain, it feels so good, the cuts and blood, heals my wounds says:
can we not talk about this?
im through with it, ok?
(boy) just leave me alone for a while EVERYONE says:
no
u aint thoughwith it
(me) the pain, it feels so good, the cuts and blood, heals my wounds says:
what do you mean im not through with it?
(boy) just leave me alone for a while EVERYONE says:
this whole thing alright
i know yeah
i fucked up alright
i am impulsive
and i hurt people
but i'm trying to set stuff stright alright
(me) the pain, it feels so good, the cuts and blood, heals my wounds says:
i know
and im telling you
i understand it thoroughly
friends
i know
ok
fine
i know
i get it
(him) just leave me alone for a while EVERYONE says:
i just neeeeed some time
i'll talk tou
tomolo
or somethign
(me)the pain, it feels so good, the cuts and blood, heals my wounds says:
yeah whatever
just
one favour?
dont tell me when you plan to call k?
and relax
im fine with everything
(boy) just leave me alone for a while EVERYONE says:
alright
i wont
ok
(me) the pain, it feels so good, the cuts and blood, heals my wounds says:
haiya
look
im fine
i swear
and oh
a few days ago
you said something about the dream issue..
and i dont think about that anymore
just
let you know
i dunnoooooooo
(boy) fifty_5o@hotmail.com says:
ight
(me) the pain, it feels so good, the cuts and blood, heals my wounds says:
ight?
(boy) fifty_5o@hotmail.com says:
alright
thanks boy, for being so direct and frank about what you feel..unlike me, too afraid to be direct and always hinting here and there all the time.. but i feel that you're SO insensitive to my feelings, although im sure there was no other way to put it right? i'll understand.. i always do remember.. i dont know whether to feel happy or sad that he told me the truth.. i guess i always knew it eh? just maybe wanted to wait for him to tell me personally, so i could finally understand and accept the fact.. fact is, im thinking, im not good enough? but hell, i know thats not true.. i asked him whether i wasnt good enough for him a cuople of years back, he said no, that thats not true.. and unlike everyone around me, i dont think that he's not good enough for me.. silly, dumb, pathetic as this sounds, i will never get over him,never get over this.. but i will never hound him again about this issue.. thank you for setting me straight.. i will never forget you...i love you, jon... my heart aches... my eyes water.. my throat hardens.. my arms bleed..