I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Tired of being what you want me to be
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ok this is really pathetic.. but i couldnt bring myself to say this to him even though he was online.. right.. so i just typed it into his convo box... maybe attempting to fool myself that i was really telling it to him, even though i wasnt.. make any sense? "i hate you i hate you jon for doing this to me i hate myself even more, so much that im numb again" right.. suddenly, linkin park's numb makes so much sense..
so its not the first time i've gotten numb over stuff like this... but perhaps.. everything would be better like this? prevent myself from gettiung hurt, sad, disappointed again? yeah.. its all for the best.. corny as this sounds, but hell, trust in God, erh.. whatever, whatever will be, will be...
oh gosh.. just now, this guy came to my house, doing this sruvey for CDC whatever thats stands for.. and i felt SO bad for telling the truth, cuz i dont realy think that the CDC, i think it's community development soemthing, does much to "promote" good ties with different ethnic groups.. it's singapore, what good can come out of its projects.. and the singy government constantly complains how there is still a conscious difference between the different races and ethnic groups.. and hell, dont they realize that by always conducting surveys among kids, asking stuff ilke "do you have neighbours of different races", "do you greet you neighbours of different races", "have you ever sat down and had a meal with a person of a different race" stuff like that, will actually have a detreimental effect on the stuff tha they're trying to impose.. from my view, it's just constantly reminding, DRILLING into these kids, that you know "hey different races ALERT!" of something..
singy's a sad sad place to be in